Hello. I found my daughter dead after a nap when she was 15 months old. I have major depressive disorder, anxiety, sleep problems and just plain fear. One of my biggest problems was not leaving the house for about 5 years. Lived in a basement, couldn t let anyone see me. That was about 5 years. Took a lot of work but I do go outside. A few years ago I started to run-a-way. I always came back. I m now afraid it s back. I want to grab a bag and run. I haven t told Candy (my therapist) yet. It wouldn t be so bad but now I am the guardian of my 5 year old niece. In my thoughts and plans I can and will bring her. I know though it is not right. I have been thinking it s time to stop my meds. I know go off them say every other day, then a few days and so on. I wish to be normal again. I ve been on different meds since 2005. What can I expect to feel as I slowly stop taking my meds? Will I feel happy and normal again? How long will it take to feel like a normal person again? I take Wellbutrin, Viiibryd and Valium.