I tend to act different in some situations. I cant handle extreme happiness or sadness. I become anxious. Eg: 1) If i find a new job, I lie to friends about it. Later i realise my mistake and tell them the truth and eventually turn bad infront of them. Finally i mess up everything. 2) In another case, I had an important interview. Instead of preparing for interview, i start to think about my collegues. What they wil think if i didnot tell them abt interview. Dont help them. Y they are not getting selected. I wasted all my time and got rejected. . 3) I got a nice project. I dont wanted my friends to be a part with me since it will lead to competition. I lied to them tht the project was not good. Later i started feeling bad, and moved to another dumb project just to tell my friends i was correct and spoiled my carer. 4) During last interview, the interviewer told me to write a code and left the place. I can easily googled it in internet and cleared the test. My career would have changed. But I didnot feel like cheating and got rejected. Ethics are pulling me back and I am messing up my total life. At times, when i look back i feel totally mad and dumb. 5) I tried to discuss all these with my bf, but he started avoiding me. And whenever i discuss all these, he does not respond properly. I am very career oriented and he is much satisfied with what he have. I want to leave him but i am addicted to chat with him since 6 years and it is not easy. I want to move out of all this and be a better person whose mind is strong. Please suggest me a way to come out of this.