Hi i have been diagnosed with a personality disorder and anxiety disorder, mostly because the air force wanted to help me get out of the military fast. However, i have regular, intense episodes of anxiety which often causes me to feint. Since leaving the military i have begun to fear even leaving the house especially alone. ive gone out the last two days and had panic attacks both days and now cant seem to calm down the level of anxiety. I hate leaving the house. I hate leaving my room, i cant stand to be near other people because i dont know how to deal with it. Its getting worse and while i should go to the va i freak out at the thought of having to go all the way to the medical center and i know it is a process. plus i am new to this town and it freaks me out more. I seriously dont want to leave the house. I need to do laundry and take the rash out but cant even manage the courage to walk down the hall because i think im gonna pass out again and people might make me go to the er again and go through all those test then stick the in the phyciatric hospital and pump me full of drugs. I went twice and they kept changing diagnosis and then told me they dont know and put me on lithium after several other drugs then they took me off everything