I lost my 31 year old son Oct.29 2015. He had a seizure and by the time his wife found him he had been without oxygen for too long . He had very little brain activity. His wife chose to take him off of life support . He has a 3 year old son with a genetic disorder called PMD. She then took my grandson, the only thing I had left of my son and went back to Guam. My son and I were extremely close. I had him at 19 and his Dad didn t want anything to do with him so it was just him and me. He did everything right. School, military where he even worked in DC with NCIS. Married and had the baby. I drive a school bus which only pays after taxes and insurance 460 dollars a month. Where I live jobs are hard to get without degrees and then still hard. I m tired, a piece of my heart is missing, and can t make it financially . I cry every day. A week after his funeral I tripped at work and broke my knee cap in half which left me with receiving 82 dollars a week and having to pay my health insurance which is 241 a month. I am prescribed xanax, soma, gabbing in and ambian. I really don t see the point in trying to keep going. I won t receive a full paycheck until the end of May. I was just released to go back to work today. A LOT of days I just feel like taking all my med and one time, go to sleep and not wake up. I miss by boy so very bad. I have never hurt this bad in my life and I ve been through a lot. And now in order to consult I have to add my email and it is telling me my email address is not valid. Nice!