Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. Phobia is a persistent, irrational fear of a specific object, activity, or situation that leads to a compelling desire to avoid it. I suggest you rethink the whole issue. I don t see you have any phobia. You do have anxiety and depression. Tiredness, memory loss, confusion are all part of the medication which are used in the treatment of anxiety and depression. Psychotherapy is the perfect treatment method for this. Step 1 - Practice Deep and full breathing whenever possible Step 2 - Drink plenty of water and fruit juices. Step 3 - A Tomato a day keeps anxiety at bay Step 4 - Exercise regularly Start these and follow strictly. After 7 days Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.