My moods fluctuate in an instant with no reason. I am really happy, talking fast and excited then I feel really really sad, so sad I just want to cry, then I get angry, like major rage where I just want to beat someone up then I feel happy again all within a few minutes. I keep all these feelings hidden though. I also hate going outside, although I do and no one knows how I feel, it takes me ages to leave the house and I have just started looking for a new job. When I have an interview my lips start shaking like crazy and my voice quivers. This is a new development. I sound nuts, but to everyone who knows me, I'm a really happy normal girl.