i am 34 year old male, I had sex with 9 woman, all escorts , 4 bbj with out condom and 5 with condom, I use condom for sex like put my dick in the pussy all 9 woman with condom, I gift oral with just 8/9 I lick and eat there pussy but I had a small cut in my lips, I ask if they were clean they say yes what are the chus that the risk are for std/hiv. I am scaer to find out that I have hiv if I do have hiv that my life is over no one wants to be with me if I have hiv . I will kill my self for good.