What Is The Treatment For Suicidal Thoughts And Depression?

hi i feel really bad i ve been taking meds for past 6 months i got prescribed them abroad and keep having suicidal thoughts like today. i have a new doctor she doesn t know what happened to me abroad though i tried to explain she spoke to me for five minutes and said there was nothing wrong with me she said i was in a bad situation before and am not now (she thinks ) and said i should stop taking meds i can t tell her i feel suidal because when i saw her twice i felt fine but then in between i feel really bad i feel like because it s just thoughts it doesn t justify getting help but i really want psyc support but she makes me feel like i can t ask for a referal. is it just in my head that i feel suicidal i haven t taken action yet but i want to stop feeling like this. i don t know what to do