I m fifteen. I m a high performance athlete: cross country, soccer, basketball, track. All competitive. I m 5 9 and I only way 136 lbs. My doctor said with my muscle mass and build I should weigh like 160. I ve only torn my ACL. I think I m depressed. I always feel like my clothes and how I look and act aren t good enough. I m popular, but not REALLY popular. More, like, I m friends with most of the not popular kids and some of the popular ones. But I always just want to give up. Because I see all these other girls and their pictures on Facebook and how they dress at school and how they hang with all the upperclassmen and go to parties and stuff, and it depresses me that I m not part of that world. Also, my parents expect perfect grades out of me, but it s hard because I m taking three honors classes in our four block schedule this semester as a freshman, along with soccer EVERY DAY after school from 3:45 to 7. I cant talk to this with my parents because they ll just yell at me for being overdramatic . But I think about what the consequences of suicide would be like (I would never be able to do it) and I ve tried cutting myself once. I just, don t know what to do. I basically feel like a disappointment because I can never get along with my parents, my clothes and my personality aren t good enough, I cry and then feel pathetic every night, and I m not popular enough.