You need help..from family, friends and psychologists for support and counselling.. what you really need is a evaluation by a psychologist, start some medicine to control your symptoms based on teh evaluation findings, and also support both emotional and mental from family, friends and people generally around you to help you come out of all these along with the treatment and behavioral modification therapies combined with counseling sessions..do not lose hope..there is a way out, there has to be a solution to every problem, otherwise it is not a problem..