hi.
i am 37 years old man, heavy smoker,180cm tall, 120 kg.
when i was 29 years i was 75kg only. gained weight in 2 years while stuck to my desk.
i did experience after recom. of a friend the masturbation while inserting a finger in my anus. i was 24 at the time. and i got addicted to it for couple of months, feeling guilty and ashamed as i my nipples started to be sensitive, i decided to stop it and i did. after it i had a mis confidence about myself and lived 2 years without interact with a woman thinking i am gay or i have an erectile dysfunction. i saw a doc he gave me a shot of prostaglandin in the penis and i remember i had erection for 3 hours, the strongest ever. he gave me only 1 box of testosterone 10 days. after a year i met a girl and lived normally till 2 months back.
before and after i use to be a stallion in bed, women were throwing themselves at me, not joking. i was in shape at the time.
i stopped meeting with women after broking up with my fiancee, and lost trust in women...long story. we were having energetic wonderfull time in bed though.
at 37, a month ago i remembered and started it.this time i went far away with it. i was using a half boiled carrot and used it while it is hot.body oil.i shaved my body with nair,wearing strings and bras.my nipples are sensitive, i guess cause of the actions.
i stopped again. and this time i decided to never get back to it.
the issue is i am starting reading about it & thought of many questions...'
i might have in-balanced hormones, never tested it. my voice is the same, not soft but not like a sergeant.
i do have weaker erections (before as well as after).
i am masturbating daily. with or without anal action.
i do lack a bit of confidence in my life, and have financial problems.but those didnt stop me before, i was foolish and i am still, a bit more mature then before as i got experienced in life.
2 questions. :
does my anal stretched a bit, will be stretching to normal again? not really deformed, except that the sphincter is a bit larger that it was.
and 2, does affect anatomically the erection? i mean the contraction muscles of the anus, if enlarged, will it affect on the erection? does it make it weaker for ever?
kindly note that i hate homosexuals,people call me racist for that, and i do like women curves.
i was doing anal action watching live sex cam.never had a fantasy about a man or even thought about it ever and i know i will never do.