hi my name is melissa i am currently this whole year.. been threw alot i found out that i could not have children naturally my.. i have hydrosalpinx and had my right tube removed in april of this year i am not on no fertile medication... I lost my grandmother in august and now my mother is in the hospital with major health problems . The doctor put me on xanax 0.5 3 times a day and it was helping me out but now i am feeling why over whelmed like to the point to where i can go three days without eating and looking at food makes me feel like throwing up i feel like if i discuss this with my doctor they might put me on more antidepressants which i am on exfexxor xr which i dont like i cant sleep at all nor eat. I cant take a break from life because bills dont stop coming!!!! I also feel like i am opn the urge of a nrevous breakdown at the ripe age of 31.... I truly dont know what to do i have no one to talk to about what is going on I am also experiencing something very strange well someone at my work place can tell me a number or thier last name and i am spelling it backwards as well as them telling me there zipcodes or numbers i put them in the computer wrong to where they can repeat it to me 5 times and yet i get frustrated to where i hand the a piece of paper to write the information down NEVER have i ever done this before....plz help me i see my doctor tommorrow and honestly if i could think back to a year ago i was sooooo happy and i hated my job to where i still loved to just go to work to where now i have a job 10 times better.. completely different hours 12am til 8am but i love this job. Pay is good but BILLLSSSSSSS take everything i am trying to go back to school but cant even find the time to go bc my life is crazy. I have a second job during the day as well but its only a extra ten hours a week.. so i work a total of 50 hours.. i want to not take the antidepressant pills and stay on xanax... I can feel a change in my chest when i take them.. But i go like 3 days without taking them than take them (xanax) because I dont want my body to get use to them... I have no sex drive its completely gone...!!!!!!!! I can go months.....It is started to effect the household honestly I dont think a pill is the answer except a vacation......But cant do that either... I am losing hair like crazy also.... IDK what to do or where to turn i dont wanna be thrown in the looney bin.... Any suggestions what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my father is bipolar as well....but i dont have that i grew up seeing the symptons and i know i dont have that. Just wanna to tell you a little family history.. Its like once i told my doctor that out came the crazy pills... I am not crazy I think I am over worked over stressed and not eating ... I need my appetite back ...plz help