i keep finding alcohol on paper towels in the garbage.. i believe it is isopropyl alcohol .i have the idea that i may be poisoned at night or my roomate is huffing. its a long story why i feel like im being poisoned. mostly just a thought ive had three or four times since we've shared a place since may. how would i really know. i have had numerous health concerns lately and i'd be the perfect target but i hate having these thoughts.. im really confused lately and today i went to a clinic because my hair is thinning. i thought i might have lupus for they often think ppl are poisoning them too. my roomate deals with depression and wanted or expressed his wants to date me but im not interested and this could hurt him but he claims to be on my side but when i was contemplating dating him he never told me he had herpes1 so his motives are not for my benefit when he claims to love me.. he has no friends and his family is not in touch.. wow this is starting to creep me out.. what should i do? i have BPD and he may count on this so others would think im crazy. am i