My Name Is Laurel---this Beast Has Over Taken My Life

my name is laurel---this beast has over taken my life ---i was lookin for some help, this awful jouney started in 2007-----i've been self medicating with alcohol---had to go to prison for dui---now i'm in mt.--have new grandbaby--her dad s a 2 time liver transplant---so afraid i'l give it to him or lil baby---what can i do ---oh please magnets????---sun detegent------debriding soap----silver collidials-----i am with my cute li 93 yr ol moma--so afraid i'll give this crap to them----------HELP