I have been attempting suicide from the age of 10 onward, by ransacking the medicine cabinet and eventually sleeping for days at at a time up until early adulthood, and one time i remember my heart stopped 3 times in hospital. i coped with my depression with major binge drinking from the age of 14 throughout the majority of my life, as long as i remember i have been experiencing dizzy spells, cold sweats and random collapsing/ fainting . i quit consuming these chemicals when i fell pregnant at 21 but still had a miscarriage at 11 weeks. i have been experiencing horrible menstrual cycles since my miscarriage, to the point of feeling crippled and suffering excruciating pain. i feel ill, get crazy migraines and get dizzy, the worst thing is that panadol doesnt help anymore. i worry if i have jeopardized my long term health and ability to carry a child ? i have never had a pap smear and during my miscarriage the nurse had mentioned that i am anaemic. i am feeling the damage i inflicted in my past and fear for what i have done to my body?