I am really trying to figure out what is going on with me as a woman. Since the summer I have been experiencing the lack of joy and desire to do anything. I get break outs on my neck and on the top of my back. I have never had acne before in my life. I have been through great depression before due to losing my little boy in a car accident 7 years ago. I feel as though these feelings are different. I have always found hope through my other children. For the past year I have to make myself act as though I am enjoying myself throughout the day for my kids. I have always found hope in helping others and having a hobby but even those things are not working.