I have had it with doctors and see no answers except death to stop the pain. I had a hysterectomy 15 years ago and suffer from such terrible nerve pain in my belly I cannot stand up straight. I have been for every test they could imagine and have been finally diagnosed with some sort of inflammatory rheumatic disorder which seems apart from the belly pain which makes it impossible for me to have a normal BM. I can hardly walk these days and every test and pain management process demands someone go with me. My daughters have their own lives and I hardly see them tired of begging for them to take time to go with me even once or twice. I pay a fortune for health care US and I messed up on bill and am now disconnected from one of my prescription plans so I have to wait to get my BP medicine. I live on SSI alone and manage to share my apt with a border but I am so tired of it all. At night I pray to die because suicide might hurt the couple of friends I now have (most of them have died and most of my family is dead or very ill also and living in poverty.) I am sick of so-called "charity" people who just give you pat answers. I asked for a therapy group for people who live in chronic pain and there is none near me.