I encourage you to seek out a free pregnancy/adoption counseling service in your area. You are well into your pregnancy and there are many families who would love to adopt a newborn and provide you support in the final stages of your pregnancy. You may feel that you don't want your baby, but believe me, there is never an unwanted baby...just trust that there are people out there to provide you with the counseling you need and to help connect you with the parents who do want a child to love.