50 yr old female. 5'10", 170 lbs. Extremely active & healthy goat farmer and ATV rider.
I had surgery on March 28, 11, to remove a cyst on L-5. 5 days later, I got a severe headache, and was told to lay on my back for 3 weeks. When the pain became unbearable, I had surgery again to repair the spinal fluid leak on April 19. I came home from the hospital, and my incision was leaking. The nurse told us that it was from the trauma of having 2 surgeries. No headache with this one. Went back to the Dr. after 2 months, and he took 60cc out of the bubble in my back, and I had surgery again 2 days later. I think that it's fixed this time, but I just feel lonely and just terrible. I'm so sick and tired of being stuck here in the house. My husband had taken wonderful care of me, but lately, I just feel like he does not want to spend any time with me at all. We were both very active before the surgeries, and now, I feel as if he does not want to spend any time with me. I've been laying here for so long, being afraid that it will spring a leak again. He is trying to get everything done that I used to do, and when our friends call to go do something, he has been going ahead and leaving me here by myself. I've never felt so alone in my life. I know that he can't sit here and hold my hand all the time, but I just sit around and cry when he is not here. He says that I am over reacting, and that answer surely does not help either. Am I loosing my mind?