I am bipolar type I. 41 yr old female, divorced with 2 kids ages 12 and 9. I had gone through what I thought worst part of divorce with no episodes 11 yrs episode free, then last year at precisely this time, I had a major mixed state psychotic epidsode, at dr. ofc on my 40th bday, Jan 3. It took months to get better, then a period of what I thought stability, then sept-oct-nov up and down. Hospialized from Nov 15-20 for paranoid delusional. I am on wellbutrn 450mg, litihum, depakote, resperidal, xanax, and not today we added lexapro. I am not so much feeling sad or blue as I am negative thinking, ruminating, is it medical or psychological? I stay for days in bed, will not get up, bored and lonely. Please help.