I almost never feel happy. I don't find a reason to be. There are people around me who are, and I ask them about why they are happy, and they say that they don't have a reason. I feel so sad all the time, because of the failures I face. Even when I am not sad, I am in a neutral state, and people ask me why am I not happy, but I don't know, why should I be happy, when there is no reason to be. I don't know how people stay happy without a reason.