Hello young man,
I can understand your feelings.
Yes you have symptoms suggestive of some psychiatric problem.
From your narration it seems that you may have
social anxiety disorder(
Social phobia). In this, person usually have constant thought how he/she should be looked to others and if he/she is not behaving well people make fun of him/her.
Due to this thoughts and fear person avoid the social situation. However this avoidance just give relief to anxiety from having in this situation otherwise it is worsening the problem and person feels some drawbacks in terms of social relation and in occupation due this avoidance.And due to these person feels depression secondary to social anxiety disorder.
This problem can be solved with help of a psychiatrist.
Two types of treatment modality.
One is medicines, in which SSRI(Escitalopram,
fluoxetine,
Sertraline etc) and anti anxiety(
Clonazepam,etizoalm,lorazepam), which are given by doctor after evaluation and person's need.
Other part is psychotherapy which is quite helpful to cure this problem.you have to pass through few sessions of counseling in which cognitive behavior therapy(CBT), short term
psychodynamic psychotherapy or flooding can be useful.
So without waiting please
consult a psychiatrist and get rid of your problem.You can go with your girlfriend for early treatment outcome, as social support can fasten the process of treatment.
Hope I have answered your query,
Regards,
Dr. CHintan Solanki.