I am 45 years employed lady.Ihave a son aged 20 years.I have been suffering from depression from last two years .Due to rigid,rash and doubtful behaviour of my husband since twenty years of our married life,I always felt suffocated. Many a times,he left the house without any information for many days.In2004, doctor diagnosed that he was suffering from OCD. He often remained on leave being idle at home lying on bed.Despite my repeated requests he did not agree to have treatment at some big institute and no relative helped me in his treatment.So,we went on taking his treatment from local psychiatrist.I am sorry to say that doctor never made us aware about such seriousness despite my asking questions on patient care on each visit .After prolonged treatment,he became depressed,totally isolated and hopeless.He committed suicide in Oct.2009.My in-laws cut-off relationship with me for not caring their son,blame me for his death and discussing of CBI inquiry .I was not aware of such type of seriousness of the disease.Now, I feel guilty,hopeless,insecure and very depressed.I can not concentrate in office or domestic work.Tears do not stop. Sometimes,I feel as if going to him is the only solution of my problem but I am compelled to live for the sake of my son.Please advise me.