I am 23, and have constantly been back and forth between stable to depressed and completely dysfunctional. I am at the point now where I have no energy to do anything at all, brush my teeth, shower, anything besides sitting on my couch binge watching stupid television shows or drinking myself into oblivion. My doctor thinks I am bipolar, but I can t get in to see a psychiatrist for months, and I am getting to the point where, I wouldn t ever kill myself, but I definitely wouldn t mind being gone. I am wondering if being admitted might be the best thing for me, but I am really scared that it if it doesn t work I will just be in the same place again. Mother is at her wits end, and is considering either taking me to a homeless shelter, or having me admitted. I just don t know what to do, and I can t find the motivation to help myself to do anything. I have so many dreams, and am a very capable young man, but I know this isn t what life is suppose to be like, and I feel like my whole existence has just been a complete waste... Any advice?