My boyfriend believes I have social anxiety. I also believe that it is true. I don t really like talking to much to people, and often try to stay quiet. I have gotten over it a little bit, but I am in college now and I feel really shy around my roommates. I often get naseaus or get headaches. I would like to get a real doctor, but I don t have any money to pay a psychiatrist. I would ask my parents to pay for one for me but I never really talked the them about my personal feelings either. I don t even cry in front of them. I do love my parents and they are supportive when I actually do tell them stuff, but because of me being shy/having social anxiety, I don t really tell my parents things that go on in my life or how I feel. I feel like this shyness or anxiety is from either me being scared of letting people down, or just a fear of embarrassment. Maybe from my childhood I was embarrassed from something and didn t like the feeling. People did once talk about my appearance when I was a younger, they talked about my weight. I believe because of embarrassment, or feeling of not being wanted, I have social anxiety. Having this anxiety is terrible now that I am trying to find a job. I cannot work at a fast food place be used I don t like to communicate that much and have a fear of messing up something. Also, when I get nervous I forget stuff that I have learned. Example: when the teacher would call on me I would forget the answer, or sometimes I would think I was wrong but was actually right. I have a fear that I will mess up if I was told to work the cash register, and I would forget my math skills. When my roomate came to talk to me, have a small conversation, I got so nervous just from that. For me to really connect with someone if have to know them for a long time. When I first met my boyfriend, I had a crush on him from the first moment I saw him, but thought he d never date me. It took me 3-4 years to finally get courage to ask him out. Also, I did this little art show in front of my school, I was panicking before I got in front of everyone but I was happy when I finished.(the only thing I had to do was show my work and tell sown thing about it, but that s difficult for me) that wasn t the first time is been in front of my school. When I was in elementary school, I had a play for the wizard of oz, and I was a munchkin. We had to dance around the stage. I did my part, but I stayed behind everyone so I wouldn t be seen. Also when I had an honors day I would look down so I wouldn t see the audience. When I had my high school graduation, I also looked down a bit so I couldn t see people s faces. I would not go to dances or games during high school. I would stay home everyday. I didn t really get into school stuff that would make me noticed, except for things dealing with art. Art is my way of expressing without socializing. I can be quiet and loud at the same time. I am going to school for art as well but, fixing a part time job that pay well is tricking when you don t like socializing. The best jobs I can think of is cleaning someone s home, or pet sitting, because I love pets. My question is do I have social anxiety or am I just shy? And What part time jobs that pay well, should a partake in?