I'm 68 years old, white male, and have been diagnosed with complex PTSD, severe depression (clinical) depression, and am on a plethora of medications.I have psychotic aspects. I have a feeling of impending doom awaiting me, and am doing my best to try to look positively at my life. Why is it that I always feel like I have to wait before I,m free from anxiety to tackle something new?. I feel like my life will be over before I get started.