What Causes Verbal Harassment And Depression While On Xanax?

I am in a clinic for medication that I take on a daily basis I go to a pain management clinic once a month every month I am drug tested and usually don t have a problem but I think I might this month because I have been on Xanax 1mg 4 times a day for over three years I suffer from manic depression as well as degenerative joints (which is why I am in the pain clinic) because of my age they do not want to operate on my lower spine or my right knee (being a complete knee replacement) I also take Norco 10-325 up to 5 times a day so that I can sleep, walk and move in general without using a walker as I am trying to keep my job. I take insulin for my diabetes and also Adderall 2 times a day 20mg. Usually I am a very smart person and I keep everything on point I have NEVER been short on my pill count or filled early from taking too many but after being on my Xanax for so long my stress level has worsened because of the simple fact I am unhappy in my home life it is not physically abusive but it very verbally at times so my family dr and I talked and decided that maybe it would help to change to valium 10mg up to 4 times daily if needed ( I have not gotten there yet) they are affecting me socially I am more snappy and angry or I cry easier so today I found one of my Xanax and since I had not taken a valium today I took it and I feel more like me the problem is I have a dr s apt with my pain management on the 4rth which is next Wednesday now I am afraid of failing my drug test because of this ....what do I do?