Hello,
Welcome to Healthcare Magic forum.
Please do not panic and please do not blame yourself.
Depression,
anxiety and stress have become very common problem in teenage nowadays.
Apart from that psychological disorders like
schizophrenia, mood and personality disorders ,
obsessive compulsive disorders commonly cause such behavourial problems which are beyond the control of your mind.You may or may not have insight about your condition and hence will face difficulty in controlling your emotions and actions.Once such problems are diagnosed appropriate treatment with medicines and
behaviour therapy can help one lead a normal life. Its like any other medical illness, if you have fever, pain etc you consult a physician ,don't you?.Similarly for anxiety, depression etc you should not hesitate to consult a doctor as its not your fault that you are suffering from it .
In your case, since you have attempted
suicide once, it is very important that you consult a therapist or
psychiatrist for appropriate management.Infact its best if you confide in your parents or someone close to you so that they can help you in seeking right treatment.Meanwhile you should try to cultivate a positive attitude towards life as you have a long and beautiful journey of life ahead.
Wishing you good health,
Regards