I think I have BPD disorder but would appreciate a second opinion. I am 32 year old female & have suffered moderate-severe depression on & off for the last 8 years.I have increasingly become aware of getting stuck in cycles of thought which I can´t escape,my instability of moods, fear of abandonment in my intimate relationships, but most worryingly of all, I have bouts of severe rage where I physically lash out at my boyfriend over the most minor things (hitting and kicking him). Despite being aware that I should not be doing it, I feel unable to control myself and swing from loving him to having really intense feelings of hatred towards him where I feel that I want to seriously hurt him. I have no idea where all of the anger is coming from, the only factor that might have played a part is that my father was a heavy drinker & used to come home very drunk, verbally aggressive and, on occasion, violent towards my mother.I am not suicidal nor have I ever self-harmed, could I be BPD?