Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. The situation you are in currently is due to the medicines you are having and the current state of your health. Therefore, don t worry. In a span of a month or so, your depression come down considerably. That is experience with the current problems. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.