Hello Doctor,
I am Arun Karthik from Coimbatore, Free Lance VFX Artist.For the Past four years my life is out my control, My family consists of
of my dad, mom, and younger sister, Dad as an Electrician mom as house wife, sis working in a private concern. A Normal Middle class family My Problems are as follows 1.Fear of Death, 2.OCD 3.Fear that i would have a disease like cancer, Brain Tumor, Heart Attack, Colon Cancer, Stroke, i often think that i would have some disease, i fear a lot, i am always in a confused state, if i get out my computer thats all i feel like i am going to have some disease or i am going to faint, vision blurriness, these are my past and present problems, often i go to a doctor and check my health, even my doctors say nothing to worry i will always think about that and reserach about it, now coming to the present problem.
I had an appendectomy before 2 months, after that i had right stomach pain which lasted for three days my doctor said it would be an infection, i did a USG, it reported that there is mesentric nodes and study of RIF needed, i was treated with IV Fluids for three days then i discharged, after that i had the same pain, again i went to my doctor he said that a CT will reveal the problems, My CT was a normal study, again i took a USG , the report said no mesentric nodes or free fluids in abodemn, it was a normal study, my doctor said there is nothing to worry, i lost 2 Kgs of Weight,i was 42 before my surgery and now just 40, if i eat there is indigestion and i feel that i have fever, but temp and BP is normal, my blood tests said its an infection, (wbc of 120000), now when i eat after an hour i feel urgency to have a bowel, but i can control it, what is my problem, should i do a colonscopy or endoscopy? i fear a lot? no blood in stools, but somewhat blackish, is it a serious problem like colon cancer or stomach cancer,
i went to one Psychiatrist Called Dr.Moni in Coimbatore, i cannot explain my problems to him because he was so busy only he took ten mins of time and put me on a counselling session, i did not go there again. There they said me that i have depression and OCD.I do yoga Shambhavi Maha Mudra Dyan from Isha Yoga, daily it gives me some relief for one or two hours then back to the game.Lots and Lots to say everything is.......
Seeing my situation Doctor my dad had an Heart Attack Last Week, i am more depressed and i am always worrying,